A Hopeless Romantic Dreams Again

I know it has been a while since I posted on this blog. The reasons are numerous, but not one of them is to blame except for the fact that I guess my heart wasn’t in it for a long time. She and I broke up, and I honestly feel heartbroken. Now, I try to find a reason to smile, and hope, maybe in the hopes that she and I can actually have a decent conversation and maybe have that connection we once had.
But she and I are going to prom… My mind wonders if it will be an awkward night with no promise, or something she would enjoy and hopefully build on something to come back to. I don’t know if she even thinks about me, or what she thinks about me in full. I just hope I can make her smile that night, as I love doing. I have a surprise for her on that night too. I hope she accepts the gift.

… Is it wrong I don’t want to be that someone she ends up putting to the side forever? :/

I hope that we can still talk about prom. ><

I really miss the conversations and pretty much everything…

“Thank you for the amazing day you had given me last night it’s what we needed thank you for the amazing gifts for valentines day I loved them specially my sock monkey hehe I smelled it earlier and started to miss you and how tightly and closely you held me in the kitchen and whispered the words you said to for the comfort I needed I felt safe and loved and just got a warm fuzzy feeling when you he…ld me and said what you did to me last night and I’ll never forget and those words you spoke almost brought me to tears. I’m so happy I have you in my life and if I were without you it would feel something is missing and like someone had taken my light from my day. I miss you terribly but then again I always do. You’re the best boyfriend in the entire universe and I’m extremely lucky to have you in my life. I am even more lucky to be called your girlfriend and that I’m yours. Please..don’t ever go..happy early valentines day and happy early three months mi amor. I love you, Boris. ♥”

I want that day back, with you, and those moments I held you. I miss you. I don’t know if you even look at this blog anymore, but from all the troubles and everything literally everything collapsing its been a nightmare to keep anything stable. You were the one thing that I thought wouldn’t go because you said these words that I know are true… Just please, don’t forget about the moments, and your promises. I love you, just as I always have. I miss you… And yeah, I want to kiss you.

You promised… Don’t comfort me with anything unless it is true.

Running a 101.1 fever and if it gets any worse she might need to go to the hospital. That is why you get some rest! ><
Keep telling you, but nooooo~

Get better, mi amor~ I love you. <3